I always wanted to write a post about the place where I studied for 4 year, but was always put on hold for some reasons..
However today, I was more eager to write about the 4 years (almost) of experience living here. The place where I studied, and made my second home...or should I say temporary stop before I enter the working world. This is the place where I share laughter and joy with the various people I met in my life.
I am not going to mention exactly where this place is...but those who follow this blog will know where I mean.
The intention to write about this place has longed bottled in my mind. Sometimes I get this feeling at my chest that I just want to let out my views and thoughts about this place. but again, for some reason..it was put on hold.
Well something happen today and that was it. This would be the day that I write out my 4 years of living here.
"Mu mai sini kejap."
MU MAI SINI KEJAP. notice the change of caps. and you will get the emotion when reading this phrase.
Reading the title, many may ask why you feel unsafe. For a start, I find the people here some what unfriendly. Not all but most of my encounter were the unfriendly type.
When you walk around here, one can't help it, but to feel self conscious. Its the feeling like everybody is looking at you. It is the feeling that you are being judge the moment you step out in public.
The guys here for example are typically "miang" when they see girls walk pass by. The make noises. Do all sort of crazy stuff like stalking. And believe me. I got a few friends that are stalk by the guys here.
Me saying the people here are unfriendly is not just mere accusation. You go to shopping complexes you will see cashiers, promoters giving you that face where it says. I am pissed of with my job and don't bother me.
"Kadang-kadang, rasa hidup sendiri lebih baik dari bercampur dgn org. Lebih tepat lagi bercouple. Ha..Inilah lumrah manusia. Tak pernah puas dan tak kan puas terhadap apa yg ada. sehinggalah kehilangan"
Tahun Baru, Azam Baru? Tahun Baru, Penampilan baru? Tahun Baru, Baju Baru? Apakah erti tahun baru kepada saya?
Tahun baru ini. saya inginkan ketenangan. Mugkin kerana permasalahan emosi yg begitu menggangu hidup tahun lepas. Tahun baru ini, saya ingin kan ketenangan. Hahaha guna "saya" pula ..mcm skema jer.
Pada tanggal 1.1.11. Gua dapat message dari bapak gua.
" So what are you going to do this New Year?,
Shall you rest in your laurels,
Follow the old patterns,
Yield to the same temptation,
Or do something that changes your life radically?"
A short simple message but yet full of provocation. The beginning of the year is one calm one. Boleh dikatakan "A New Year is just another day in life". I only notice that it was 2011, when I heard a group of people counting down to the 12 midnight seconds.
This new year,I believe will be a Good year for all of us!
For those who don't know. This is my final sem . After this is hello working world! Right now still uncertain for the first batch of graduates students of UMK. However, I believe we all will succeed!
Flash back 2010.
That was the year that I gain and loss. The year 2010 began with my intern ship in Cameron
Followed by an opportunity for students exchange in Bengkulu Indonesia.
Followed by a break up .
Ended the year with an accident.
What a year.
But this 2011 will be a better year. I once heard that in life there will be ups and done. for me 2005 and 2010 was not a good year. But it was a year that taught me a lot. Grew a lot from all those life experience.
" Pleasure, material, possessions,
and even great knowledge do not bring lasting satisfaction,
A person who possesses everything this world has to offer,
but does not prepare for eternity is spiritually destitute"